|I STILL LOVE!!!
||[Jul. 18th, 2008|10:05 am]
The Rabid Steven Page Fans
I was kinda surprised, for a little bit, at least. Surprise didn't keep, though.
My boyfriend sends me a link at work with some subject about another "hardened criminal" brought down for drugs. A musician himself, it was sarcastic and the body consisted of only the word ::sigh:: and a link.
I opened it expecting some half-dead rock star or another known user hip-hop artist getting busted for something minor. When the name Steven Page popped up, my heart sunk. I wasn't let down, in as much as I was sad for him. I was also fascinated, reading as much as I could to figure out the "truth". And to be fair,I probably didn't get it.
There are reports that he left his wife and three boys and in full mid-life crisis mode shacked up with two younger gals in NY and had been living it up. I didn't realize they had split.
I offer another way to look at it.
I do beleive in the past that Steve has suffered from major depression. I think he's been open about it and if you know BNL (and I mean REALLY know BNL, not just Stunt) then you know War on Drugs and I Live With It Everyday among others, are more or less about that. My thought? His marriage ended, he's away from his boys, his depression eeked back in and he's self medicating with drugs and younger women. Dumb? Sure. But he may not be abe to see that now. I always felt under the bubbly, sweaty silly man is a big dark vat of pain. Listen to the lyrics. Think black SpiderMan. He's kinda got a symbiot.
Did you see the mug shot? This is not a smug partier, this was someone who looked miserable. And who I think will be okay.
And so what they did a kids album. Unless there is some sort of subliminal message advising them to use coke, who gives a rat's ass.
That man's voice and words have made me feel and gotten me through more things then I can easily count and recall. He and the rest of BNL and the Page's are still worthy of love and support as they all work this out.
Next album should be interesting, however.