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I STILL LOVE!!! [Jul. 18th, 2008|10:05 am]
The Rabid Steven Page Fans
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I was kinda surprised, for a little bit, at least. Surprise didn't keep, though.

My boyfriend sends me a link at work with some subject about another "hardened criminal" brought down for drugs. A musician himself, it was sarcastic and the body consisted  of only the word ::sigh:: and a link.

I opened it expecting some half-dead rock star or another known user hip-hop artist getting busted for something minor. When the name Steven Page popped up, my heart sunk.  I wasn't let down, in as much as I was sad for him. I was also fascinated, reading as much as I could to figure out the "truth". And to be fair,I probably didn't get it.

There are reports that he left his wife and three boys and in full mid-life crisis mode shacked up with two younger gals in NY and had been living it up. I didn't realize they had split.

I offer another way to look at it.

I do beleive in the past that Steve has suffered from major depression. I think he's been open about it and if you know BNL (and I mean REALLY know BNL, not just Stunt) then you know War on Drugs and I Live With It Everyday among others,  are more or less about that. My thought? His marriage ended, he's away from his boys, his depression eeked back in and he's self medicating with drugs and younger women. Dumb? Sure. But he may not be abe to see that now. I always felt under the bubbly, sweaty silly man is a big dark vat of pain. Listen to the lyrics. Think black SpiderMan. He's kinda got a symbiot.

Did you see the mug shot? This is not a smug partier, this was someone who looked miserable. And who I think will be okay.

And so what they did a kids album. Unless there is some sort of subliminal message advising them to use coke, who gives a rat's ass.

That man's voice and words have made me feel and gotten me through more things then I can easily count and recall. He and the rest of BNL and the Page's are still worthy of love and support as they all work this out. 

Next album should be interesting, however.
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[User Picture]From: spooky_page
2008-07-18 06:08 pm (UTC)
My heart sank when I read the article in my local paper... Because Steven Page has been my IDOL since I was a kid... I honestly nearly cried.... because all of my childhood heros are getting busted for drugs lately.
I've considered "What a Good Boy" my *anthem* since I was eight years old...
And I work as a lifeguard at 5.30am every day... and BNL is always on my playlist for the morning because it's some fine YMCA-friendly music to keep me awake all morning.

And I agree... mid-life crisis completely... but being a huge admirer of his words... I'm looking forward to hear his new work.... I hope he works this all out and comes out of it a stronger person and musician.
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[User Picture]From: indigo_inferno
2008-07-18 08:16 pm (UTC)
I second it all. I can imagine he's had a rough time, I didn't even know he broke up with his wife. *bad fan* But jeez, I don't know if I am shocked, sad, disappointed or just feeling odd about this.

I know he is just a man and human like all of us, and idolizing is always wrong, but .. well no but. I hope he's going to be ok. I've only been a fan for about 9 years now, but Steve and the boys altered bits of my life, so to speak, so .. well. I won't give up on that.

SOrry if I'm not making sense at all. I have been having a hard time trying not to cry too much about this.
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[User Picture]From: causticwookie
2008-07-18 09:25 pm (UTC)
Thanks for posting this. I still love him, and probably would no matter what he did. I just want to give him a huge hug right now, you know?
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